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Journal Entry: Fri Feb 28, 2014, 8:27 PM
My mother... she passed away... After years she fights her tumor... It's my fault... I didn't try my best to nurse her... I'm so stupid... I've never make her proud of me... She'll never see me graduate... She'll never take my first salary... She'll never see me get married... She'll never see me having child... She'll never be with me whenever I need her... And it's all because of me...

I already knew today will come because death is inevitable. And lately I've dreamed about her death. I already got the feeling if she'll leave us first since I'm on Elementary school. Of all family member I've ever see in my dream, my mom's only one who appeared as a ghost and play with me in my dream. And it happens more than once, it happens a lot lately. I take less concern about it, because in the morning I always see my mother. Waking me up or I wake up first and wake her up. But now, it'll never happens again. I'm still waking up and seeing her alive yesterday, but few minutes she is... sorry, it's too personal and hurt.

So, counted as yesterday, I'll be the substitute of my mom. But she won't be replaced in anyone's heart. And she will life forever in my heart. I'm promise mom, I'll make all you worries on me won't come true. But I'll make your hope about me come true instead.

Hope God place you in his best side. Her death is on a good day, Friday. I wish I can be strong enough as her. She fights her illness around 7 years but she insist to do most of the chores with everyone help. We'll pray for you here, and I hope we can meet again...

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So, I decided to update this journal. :iconraze-plz: I just... wanted those skin. :iconraze-okayplz: This is great chance because premium is available for free. I think this journal needs a special treatment, I don't want it to be removed from my main page. :iconvayne-plz: You see, tomorrow or 8th April is the memorial day for the 40th days since my mom passed away. Times flew by so fast. I didn't miss her so much, and honestly I think she is still around me. :iconnikki-hmmplz: I still feel if she is alive. Of course the fact is no, and life without her is really hard. But because of your supports, I can rise and shine. :iconaliceisgladplz: Not only my watcher and friends, even stranger commented on my page and journal to state their sympathies. You guys are just so kind... :iconnikki-sobplz: I feel no longer sad now, thank you.~~~ :heart: :iconnikki-happyplz:

And for tomorrow... I have some kind of dilemma there. As far as I concern... there's no such thing of 40th day memorial in my religion. It was actually Javanese culture...

That's all for now. I guess I won't update anymore until I get a subby so I can keep this skin... Or else, I have to update older journal. Just to keep this one on my page.





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  • Listening to: Green Eyed Jealousy(TAMUSIC x KEIGO KANZAKI Remix)
  • Playing: Dino Crisis, Tomba! 2

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Thank you again for the fav Meow :3 
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